yep

for some reason i'm in a bitter mood tonight.

a friend, well, ex, is expecting a child.

and it's not fair.

why?

because why is it fair for someone who was so against having kids in the first place expecting a child, when someone like me who wanted a kid finally gets her chance, but then has it torn away because of a blighted ovum and then afterward being slapped with the high possibility of having cancer which may ruin any further possibility of ever having kids in the future.

thanks universe for fucking me over and giving things to people who never wanted them in the first place instead of to people who really do want them.

though i am glad that he's being responsible and not fleeing the scene. that's good at least.