Two weeks ago they said I was 50% effaced, 1cm dilated and -2 station. Well.. two weeks later and I'm pretty much just chillin at the same mile marker. Words could not even begin to explain how bummed I was. I went in, hoping I have made some progress and getting word that I may go into labor any day, but nope.. Then I was told by my doctor that my amniotic levels were at an 8 and low is at a 5, so I was in the "normal, yet low" range. Which pretty much means that next week, I get to have another ultrasound done to check the fluid levels and if they dipped, they're going to have to induce.
Either way, my doctor isn't comfortable with me going past 40 weeks.
And granted, neither am I.
But I'm stuck on the damn fence.
I have a birth plan, and that plan is to attempt to go for a natural child birth. I would prefer my body to go into labor naturally. I want to experience that feeling of "Omg! This is it!" and I would like to stay away from drugs like pitocin and an epidural. Having a child is a right of passage and I want to try and experience that moment as much as possible and see exactly how it feels. But the possible chance of an induction could hinder all of that, and I'm torn. Torn because I want my body to do things naturally, but at the same time, I'm tired of being pregnant, and I just want to hold my little girl. If I can try and go natural, I will, but I can't argue with the doc if my fluids are low, putting Emma at risk.
I think all together I'm just disappointed, but also trying my best to look at the positive, which is with in the next week, my daughter will be here, safe and sound.
I'm just going to pray that my body kicks into gear this week and does things how I want it to.
oh and ps, the next person who is like "Have you had that baby yet?!" I'm going to punch in the damn face.
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